December 28, 2024
3 days until the end of 2024. Oh my! 2024 has definitely been the year of the most growth. I committed some old mistakes again; lessons I thought I had learned. I lost some people along the way. But this year I believe I truly gained myself. What a treasure.
In all those moments I tried my hardest to make others stay, it was dark, but at the same time, it did something incredible. Conscious of the darkest parts of me, I still couldn’t seem to reach the growth necessary to stop drowning myself. After much self development, I finally got tired of hurting and losing myself in hopes of finding someone else who would just “get me”. Turns out I had to look in the mirror. And all around me — I have everything I need to stop drowning myself. That which I offer others, I finally started giving to myself.
The focus of 2024 was falling in love with my life. It’s a work of art. A process. Finally! I keep learning from my mistakes. It has not been easy. It’s not all flowers. But it’s not me against the world. Against all odds, I am the strongest and I trust my self to get me through anything. Like a tree, I extend towards the sky, branches extended to others – loved ones, strangers, the world – in all its beautiful craziness in hopes that this journey will continue to take me where I’m meant to be, and I’m right on time.
As I write this post, I ride the Brightline from Orlando to Miami in route to a wedding in Mexico, reflecting on how much life simulates these transits. Cliche, sure. But a journey nonetheless. The compass for 2025 points towards healing. A life long journey of healing. The soul yearns for growth. Finding the self in the things you love and in the reflection of others. To love, to accept, to extend kindness.
I’m taking this with me to 2025 –
- Nothing repeats exactly the same way. So don’t fear the same mistakes, instead reflect on them, and don’t risk not being present to these ephemeral moments.
- We can’t go back in time, nor take back hurtful words and actions so be mindful of the way you express them.
- It’s best to let go then to hold on to something that depletes you or makes you feel empty. Same goes for holding on; not worth letting go of something you know is worth it so pay attention to how something or someone makes you feel so you can balance between holding on and letting go.
At the beginning of 2024 I was so scared of repeating the same mistakes that I did! It was a self fulfilling prophecy. So now there is no fear. I trust myself fully. My intentions are pure. I don’t run away anymore. I stay and embrace even the scariest parts of myself. I am courageous. I am patient with my growth. I am living.
My thoughts are little ephemeral sparks connecting me to my feelings if only I allow myself to discover it with an open mind. I now know that in order to be happy I just have to trust myself.
